JoU HiMe’s BouLeVaRd of PaRaDiSe!!

there’s this friend of mine, she was opting to be an emo…previously, i tot that emo is some kind of punk…but it seems not..so, i decided to check it out..and this is wat i found.

apparently, EMO is short for "emotional". Emo is a broad title that covers a lot of different styles of emotionally-charged punk rock.

Some pointers about emo fashions (above simple, universal hardcore attire):

- the Emo Romulan look - short, thick, greasy, dyed-black hair with bangs cut straight across the forehead, and cut high over the ears. Someone from Time In Malta recently described to me the San Diego Crimson Curse scene as "Spock Rock."

- actually, any greasy dyed black hair. Bangs in front and spikes in back is very emo too.

- horn-rim glasses, or at least thick black frames.

- bald head, furry face (boys only). Goes especially well with horn-rims.

- heavy slacks, often too tight and short.

- thin, too-small polyester button-ups in dark colors, or threadbare children’s size t-shirts with random slogans. Button the collar if you got one.

- clunky black shoes

- scarves

- gas station jackets. This has diffused a lot over the years though, it’s no longer exclusive to emo kids. Nowadays, you may want to select a nice corduroy denim jacket.

- also classic outerwear but quickly diffusing to normality: the famous Blue Peacoat

-barrettes on boys

- make-up (male or female)

- too-small cardigans and v-neck sweaters

- argyle

- anorexic thinness. Veganism helps here.

these are the examples of emos:

To feel love and to be free               

by Jovanne

What is wrong in dreaming that you want me;

When the truth is you know that I want you too;

Why don’t you believe that you love me;

Without your love, I feel like a fool.

The fool it is, I wish to be;

If all it takes to have your love and be free;

As free as a bird I want to be;

If only you could open your eyes and see me.

Here I am standing in front of you;

Though I might be the last in the queue;

To fulfill your dream and to set you free;

All you have to do is to notice me.

When I looked at you in the eyes;

I wished you could feel the love I feel for you;

When I said I truly love you;

I wished you could say the same too.

You could be the person to shed some light to me;

You could be the person to bring some life to me;

If only we knew each other since birth;

Then we wouldn’t be separated by the earth.

Instead of spending some nights with me;

Having breakfasts and exchanging keys;

Why don’t we spend forever together, for eternity;

Until death eats us up; until death do us part.

Whenever the nights fall upon the earth;

Wherever you and I were together having fun;

That’s the moment when I wish I could know you since birth;

Only then our hearts might be allowed to unite as one.

Wait a while before you go;

Only then will you know;

How much I feel for your soul;

Even though, empty is what I am told.

You already know how much I love you;

And I might guess how much you love me;

To feel love and to be free;

All you have to do is to accept me.

recently i was chatting with one of my close frens, JOEY, about our idols… both of us are fanatic about taiwan idol dramas. Since we were both jobless and free, Youtube’s been the oni refuge we could shelter in while waiting for another life phase to come.

Ok, back to the taiwan idol dramas. i remember one of the first taiwan dramas i watched before and really liked was "meteor garden I". it’s the taiwan version of a japanese manga called hana yori dango. then the waves of korean and japanese dramas took over this entertaiment industry, thus i lost contact with it for a few years; until now, I am back in track!!

recently; i’ve completed a few Taiwan idol dramas such as;

It started with a kiss, Devil beside you, Hana Kimi, the rose, Summer X summer, Smiling Pasta

i would say that the taiwan idol drama definitely scored lower than those dramas from korea and japan. As it already indicates as idol drama, all the actors and actresses were of beautiful looking guys and girls, their actings definitely didn’t reach the expectations of wat it should hav been. But why is it that, audiences still stay loyally and support productions from Taiwan? well, easy to be said, people like beautiful things. so it’s an easy thing for our eyes to see beautiful people on screen. which is why we are still attracted to Taiwan idol dramas.

There’s an example; this actor is a damn beautiful creature. His name is wu zun. He was originated from Brunei, having completed his degree from Australia, he decided to enter showbiz. and the rest was history. His fame was a legend. well, maybe not a legend, but compared to other actors, he reached his fame way faster than others.

his face features were all as perfect as but anything. Here’s the evidence;

Perfect! thou his acting sucks, but he still manage to grab and utterly melts his fans’ hearts.

you can check his blog if u wan to know more about him, http://www.wretch.cc/blog/wuchun10cool

for me, he’s just another pretty face with zero talent.

it’s been such a long time since i last wrote a blog in friendster. well, the truth is i have create a new blog elsewhere. which is for private use!! and i have no whatsoever intention to share the site with you here. Gomen~ adios~

sometimes when we reach the banks in our journey of life, we will stop a split second, spread our wings and stretch ourselves. and then, we will wonder, " now, what?"….

who says that life stops after one dies? perhaps it’s only the beginning of the new chapter of our life. perhaps the world we are living now is only the preliminary or prologue of our true journey of life.

who decides to end life? who decides to begin it?

well, the truth is, there is no truth revealed. in fact, i believe that no one in this world, would really understand or find out, what is this all about!! what are u doing here, what am i doing there? why are we here?

why everything is everything it is?

let us "keep our mind wide open" (inspired by bridge of terabithia ~ nice show,guys ). let us accept things way beyond our imagination. let us accept life. let us enjoy the feel of being who we are.

another quote of the day " keep moving forward" (inspired by meets the robinsons). no matter time chase after us, or that we go after it, anyway, who the hell invent time? who invent that it must be 60 seconds in 1 minute, and 60 minutes in one hour, 24 in 1 day, and 365 in 1 year, and then wat? 1 million in 1 wat?? when the world is going to end? when will this whole set, this whole scenario will drop dead and the last breath passed out.

when it do, i believe the soul in me now, the me now, the so-called "jou" with a plump, round body, with the side-wired thinking, with the weird endless thinking, reaching for something that no man were known to have reached, the me : will be well gone!

started work in usm yesterday…and weird enough, i doesnt need to work for the next three days…haha…freelance agent…there’s no worktime for me….which is great…yahoo!!!

well, one thing bout USM is that; it’s really USM in penang…coz u wont see a girl in heels or spaghetti strap or red hair or miniskirt, as i’m so used to back in KL…

hmm…so lonely here..no fren yet…there’s no colleague..apparently i’m the oni trainee in my department…sad sad sad…miss KL life…thou not studying life…miss all my uni frens and the night hangouts at mamak…hmm….lonely….i’m so so lonely…..

just received a phone call from Amy (CECS centre) bout my co-op job. at last~….got a job as research assistant for a professor in USM. well, not sure if this is a good thing or a bad…

one thing good is i get to stay at home, and be fed like a pig king..yippee…one thing bad is i’m not gonna enjoy with all my frens over in KL!!! wahhhhhhh…that’s sad…gonna miss all those late nights mamak in mydin, murni….wahhh…..and celebrate frens’ birthday in wong kok!!! wahh..gonna miss all my freedom- no curfew whatsoever….that’s totally a disaster..but one good thing is that yeah; i got to celebrate CNY in hometown..which is one of the moments in the year i awaited all my life for…

haha..i know…i’m being ‘mau tun’….this oso kenot..that oso kenot..well, that’s being me!!keke..

anyway, now the only worry i have now is stupid thesis..totally no desire to continue with it…god bless me with it!! amitabha…

One keeps questioning bout others’ sexuality! sometimes i wonder, after all, is it important in our life? is finding the right one important after all? regardless, whether the other half is of the opposite sex or the same sex, or of no boundary. sometimes, i feel weak inside, as not to be able to reveal the true self. the verge of emerging into the surface of nakedness, it kinda make my body chill and goes all frizzy. recently, i did revealed a small part of my inner self, and though i got both postive and negative views, the most important is still how i view myself. "i have to respect and look up to myself, before others can,right". what i am saying here have not much connection from the title, but it is of linkage between searching one’s sexuality and to know who u really are. for others to know you and to get near to u, first you have to accept who u really are. or else, it’s selfish to not let others to have the chance to know who r u. thus, no matter, whether u r homo, or not, whether you r into weird fetishes, not attractive enough or u have low-self esteem,or u feel no love from ppl surrounding u, all that matters is to start believing in urself!!

tomolo’s viva for my thesis.. first post and i’m already starting with unhappy and stressful stuff. well, just hope that everything would go smoothly and fine with me. amitabha!! still haven’t found any co-op job yet. that’s sad. i always wonder is it that my luck is never lucky, or it’s just a fate fallen onto my life that all the things that i would want to achieve, i have to strive so hard to get it. well, anyway, i decided to have no more thoughts on this issue, as it will lead me to no where further than i am now.

all i need to do now is to concentrate on my viva and to have fun in my life. As one saying goes: "Life is more than that"…

You can do it, JOU HIME!!! GanBaTeH MaSu!!!